i dunno

I'll post more crap on here later.

I am suppose to be reading my text book. I read the first chapter and I am half way through the next.

I was suppose to have friday off, but no. Too many people were stupid with alocohol in my Squadron and they are making us work. I have Monday off, though. We were going to go to a movie Thursday night, that is not going to happen now either. I think we're going have HUGE 99 cent burgers at Applbee's (We have one bad meal a week) on Sat, go bowling and do a few other things. However, taking the baby to Boise tires me out after a couple hours.

I miss my baby! I guess he laughed for real today. I miss everything good. He cried this morning because he didn't get to suckle long enough. I felt terrible. He was sooo sad. I feel bad having to leave him every morning in his crib, alone and without momma. Guilt is a normal feeling I have. I know I have to work (someone has to), but I want to be there for him more.

I am bored. I need more to do during the day. ha.