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So I just read this article about annoying fans at concerts. I am one of those! I sing during the concerts and talk loudly to whoever I am with. Which apperently annoys many people.

At an Imogen Heap concert in Chicago about 4 years ago, I sang the entire time. (I can't help it! I really should be doing more music) and the guy next to us plugged his ear next to me. I felt terrible because I was either was singing bad or I was way too loud.
I just love to sing outloud! Ask my husband. I rock out in the car if I am by myself. But I like to sing the harmony parts (off or not!). My ear has improved quite a bit over the years. But Josh's still out does mine. That photographic memory is not always useful in my endeavors! (on our way to Idaho from michigan, Josh and I would sing together to Tool. But he can't quite sing as high as Claudio Sanchez. So we compromise by listening to a band who's singer isn't in my range. hahaha.)

On the 15th of July I am going to go see Sam play in Boise. I am very excited. I saw him play in San Antonio while I was there for Tech School. He lives in Austin now.


On the 16th of Sept I am going to go see Coheed and Cambria. I am sure it will be loud enough for me to sing during the concert. When I went to see Evanescence with Kaylan, her and I sang really loud. But that was PineKnob , and it was SOOOOOO loud on the hill we were sitting. Then her and I started dancing (yes, hardcore dancing, Goodness! we were losers!) and some boys asked if we listened to metal/hardcore and we hung out with them later.

I had the weirdest dream last night. It involved some people I went to HS with in Ohio. The mean people (steph isn't mean tho) and one of them crapped in my shower because I embarrassed him infront of the other guys who are also a**holes. I don't know if they still are, but most boys don't change from their high school habits.
God I wish I was who I am now. Because I would NOT have tolerated that. I don't now. Most of the boys in Vehicle Ops are like them. Run around hitting eachother's butts and making nasty stupid jokes about farts and penises. Most of the people in TMO can't stand them. And too bad one of them peed on a Security Forces car and got our day off taken away. GOOD JOB! Or how about being drunk while watching your children with weapons in their home. (shakes head)

I am very random.

I should be reading the text book... still. I will. Its only 11. I have until 430. But I have to babysit for ALS! I LOVE BABIES!!!! hehe.

i dunno

I'll post more crap on here later.

I am suppose to be reading my text book. I read the first chapter and I am half way through the next.

I was suppose to have friday off, but no. Too many people were stupid with alocohol in my Squadron and they are making us work. I have Monday off, though. We were going to go to a movie Thursday night, that is not going to happen now either. I think we're going have HUGE 99 cent burgers at Applbee's (We have one bad meal a week) on Sat, go bowling and do a few other things. However, taking the baby to Boise tires me out after a couple hours.

I miss my baby! I guess he laughed for real today. I miss everything good. He cried this morning because he didn't get to suckle long enough. I felt terrible. He was sooo sad. I feel bad having to leave him every morning in his crib, alone and without momma. Guilt is a normal feeling I have. I know I have to work (someone has to), but I want to be there for him more.

I am bored. I need more to do during the day. ha.

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I am bored at work. Mandi wanted me to make one a while ago. So... I did as I was told. lol.

Xavier is doing well. He didn't wake me up last night and was upset I woke him up at 5 am. But I need to feed and change him. He cried pretty hard and I felt terrible. But he's always super happy after eating if he's sleepy. He just looked at me and stared at his hands.

A fellow Airman's child died 2 days ago and I was very sad. He was 5 months old and passed away while taking a nap. I cried on the way home. I get so sad if anything negative happens to babies. I love their innocence and good nature.

So when I got home I just held Xavier. He actually let me cuddle him and hold him pretty close until he wanted to eat. I love nursing him. Its cute because he gets disctracted easily by Josh's voice. So if he talks, the baby pulls off to stare at him and listen to what he's saying. Then he realizes he was eating and goes back. He'll do that back and forth until Josh stops speaking. He also got better at eating more quickly. He would take an hour to eat. Now he takes about half that time. I don't mind either way. I love being around him and watching him nurse.

For the 4th of July we are going bowling. I know that sounds boring, but we love bowling. And we aren't going to take the baby anywhere. He's a little young. But we are going to the Puyallup Fair in Sept to see Coheed and Cambria. Oh yeah, I love them! ( I think its because of the big hair, chubbyness and glasses. hahahaha. He looks like the Puerto Rican Version of Josh. And they both write great music and play guitar. hahaha. Doppleganger)

I need to pump. I do not enjoy doing this. It takes way too long and its boring.